=Perfectionist=

2010-12-26T22:09:00.002+08:00

This space has too much memories of the past..
Gonna be starting a new blog soon..
With new beginning and new memories..
Will update soon with my new blog link once its ready...

Love,
Phoebe

2010-11-29T01:00:00.002+08:00

What is commitment?
After many setbacks...
Gradually i came to realise...
I'm never and will never be the commitment level high kind of person
Commitment scares me...
Not at the inital stage but gradually...
I know i kind of ruin some people life/perception about love..
I dont mean it..
I just got to know what i really want
And i couldnt continue to pretend that i dont care about it
And that i am able to commit to something which freaks me out
So i choose the easiest way out..
To end it...
Which is best for both parties..

I'm sorry i hurt u...
i'm sorry i didnt give any pre-warning
I'm sorry that i'm selfish..
But life is never fair isnt it?

I'm never the kind of gal that
I have a thought/feeling i go talking it out straight away
I keep it...
I think about it...
I decide upon myself...
And release it...
Selfish...
Yes i know...
Which i remembered someone kept telling me that..
Guess its just inborn in me..
I couldnt help it..
I'm brought up to protect myself...
Protect myself ended up hurting someone..

I sometimes do hate myself for being so me...

I know what i want and like now..
Doesnt mean that i have to act on it..
I love the way i am now..
Learnt that never to take things too fast..
That's when problems arise..
I'm taking everything slow..
So...
Sorry again...

Phoebe...

2010-10-12T10:32:00.003+08:00

I dislike this paranoid feeling..
Feel so stupid...
Its making me feel uneasy..
Couldnt sleep well...
Kept thinking alot..
Imagining the unimaginable..
I need something to distract me..
But there aint anything..
So well..
Guess this paranoid feeling is just going to stick around awhile longer..

This paranoid feeling
Made me understand
How much i'm afraid of
L O S I N G
Y O U

Perfectionist

2010-10-11T21:22:00.011+08:00

Mini Celebration of 2nd Monthsary

Late celebration doesnt mean not celebrating..
My mentality should change for this..
Anyway..Baby brought me for a nice dinner and a drink
Both place of nice ambience and we had a long time talking about lots of stuff..
I shall let the pictures do the talking...
And mmm..
Birthday in 9 more days..
But i have no freaking idea how do i celebrate it..
Haiz..
And + baby will be having reservice in NS..
Double major sadness
...........

Perfectionist

2010-10-06T14:03:00.002+08:00

My heart is aching
My heart is cursing
My heart is swearing
My heart is squeezing pain

How stupid can i get..
That i actually expected such thing wouldnt have happen to me..

Indeed i'm wrong..
Super wrong..
That Son of the bitch person who stole my bag..
Seriously!
What's so good about my bag?
But yea thanks to YOU
I have to replace my SNB CERT/Staff Pass/Name Tag/Name Chop
There goes my new bought perfume!
There goes my Creative Zen MP4!
There goes my new bought diary with my dearest frens and sis Poloroid Pic!
And my new PENS!!

I'm vulgar and defensive when i am angry
This is me..
Inregardless of anyone..
Do not rub on my wound..
Do not and i really mean do not..
RUB ON MY WOUND!
You wouldnt want to see me snapping right at your face..
Dont go the tactic of
'How careless/ you shouldnt have left your bag there'
I KNOW!!
The last thing to hear is to REMIND ME OF THAT!
So yea unless you seriously know how i handle my feelings..
Please dont assume that i am alright..
I AM NOT!
And i aint making any noise about it..
I see no point..
So just leave me alone..
Leave me to my usual self..
Of
Shelling up...

I believe this feeling will die off soon..
Just a matter of when...
So if i really do snap at you..
I apologise..
I'm just in a lousy mood..

Perfectionist

2010-10-01T15:02:00.011+08:00

Trattoria Itallian Kitchen 20-09-10

Strawberry milkshake

Melon .... appeitiser

Mushroom soup

Fried Calamari

Pizza

US!

Blehz...

Bless to have you...

Perfectionist

2010-09-18T09:17:00.013+08:00

A Shopping date with my Sister...

Everyone always says we look alike..
We do feel so, dont we?
Well.. Not excatly much on the outlook
We do onli really look alike to a certain extent
That wasnt really the main important point
The thing is we feel connected as sister..
We dont judge..
We dont blame..
We dont scold..
We dont pinpoint...
Though we sometimes do have views about each other
Ultimately we will talk it out..
We calm each other down just by being there for each other
We make each other laugh so wholeheartedly..
We almost have everything under the sun to talk about
And that is what i call sisters..
Hard to come by
Hard to maintain
But we both treasure
Treasure this sisterhood that both of us never had before
And its going strong still...

All in all.. i love my sis...

So little shopping trip we have
Enjoy the pictures..

hello...=>

Here she is...

We like making funny faces..

Isnt she cute..lol..

And she loves bullying me

We always have fight..
But it always end up laughing

Cute??

Bought our sunglasses together

Perfectionist

2010-09-11T19:26:00.022+08:00

I miss dancing...
alot...

I miss those days...
When can i dance again??

2010-09-08T17:02:00.038+08:00

5th Sept Sunday
Mini CandleLight Lunch
Prepared by Baby

Started the day with downpouring rain
Chill wind blowing around....
But nothing stops me from going to baby house
Ok...1st month anniversary was over...
But not for my little gift..
Overdue..yes...But nonetheless...
Its the thought that counts isnt it?
He cook and he played piano for me..
Wrap arms around each other and had a swaying dance around
Never have i from the first time i saw him
would have guess that my baby knows how to play a piano
Pretty *Shocking*
But i enjoyed listening..
And yea i made a little mini card for him
Which i forgotten to took a pic...
*Sadded*

Went out and brought some groceries

Soup

Pasta

Our cute little mini candle light lunch

Beancurd for dessert

And with us smiling..

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7th Sept Tuesday
CVM appt day turns out to be awesome Sunset viewing

Early morning woke up with baby at my doorsteps
Waiting to accompany me for my CVM appt at SGH
Poor baby suffer together with me skipping breakfast
Ended up we have Waffle for Brunch
So here comes with me ranting my cvm appt first
Walk into the consultation room
And poof the Registrar doctor looks farmilar to me
ooo...She came before to our ward for one of my patient
OOooo and she still remembers me..
LOL...the conversation and scene was like so funny..
Anw...ended up i have to go for lots of test and scan

- Treadmill Exercise Test on 11-11-10 0900am
- 24 hour holter monitoring fixing on 11-11-10 1030am
- 2D echo of my heart on 12-11-10 1045am
-Blood taking on 12-11-10 1100am
-Doctor review on 16-11-10 1150am

So awesome right
and its gonna cost me a darn bomb to my pocket
*sigh*

So after the appt baby brought me to Vivo City
Watch "Grown ups" movie
So hilarious and nice..
But end up having headache after the show
Turn quiet and kinda moody suddenly
My baby was like *confused*
What has happen to me...hee..
Couldnt stop asking if i am ok..

Then time flies and baby brought me to
=KEPPEL BAY=
Initative plan was to bring me there for dinner
But i'm a lucky gal that day
Sun rising high and with clear blue sky..
Walking hand in hand along at the sidewalk
We watch our first sunset together
*sweet*
took lots of pictures too..
At that moment i turn to peep at him
I ask to myself silently
Is he the one?
I guess my heart has the answer

Dinner at TCC by the bay
Totally love the ambience and setting
So soothing and warm
Had my favourite dark chocolate as dessert..

Fingers interlock and walking side by side with you
Makes me feel warmth and safe
You dont purposely crack jokes to make me laugh
You dont purposely say sweet stuff to make me happy
But just by having short conversation
Its enough to bring a little smile to my lips
And guess that is what i call long lasting feeling of assurance

The awesome sunset we watch together

Nice weather isnt it?

Loving the calmness of the cloud

Our shadows

And see how my baby pose...lol

Love in the sky

That never ends

ooo still sunny

Smile smile

Peaceful and quiet

And and...my feet was so pain
Baby was so sweet to help put plaster for me
I secretly snap this picture
*I'm your princess*

Can barely open my eyes

Windy windy

This is us

He snap this ugly pic of me

And he left me self emo there and snap this pic of me

So dreamy

1st attempt to take with the sunset - failed!

2nd attempt - with the sunset between us

Love your dosage of hugs

You love my hugs too?

Dinner at TCC by the bay

so nice right

Before our food arrives

Let us show you our kuku face

Our drinks

So milky

so pretty looking

My favourite

chocolate oozing out

Ok...till then...
Hope ya enjoy the post..
Phoebe aka Perfectionist

2010-09-07T00:38:00.004+08:00

= Be with someone who knows what they have when they have you =

If you are going to love me
LOVE ME DEEPLY
If you're going to care for me
CARE FOR ME COMPLETELY
If you're going to stay
STAY FOREVER
If you're going to say
'I LOVE YOU'
Please mean it...

Random post though....LOL
But meaningful isnt it? haha

Phoebe aka Perfectionist

2010-09-01T12:15:00.025+08:00

-- 26th august --
Simple Dinner at Marche and Step up 3 movie

Always loving the atmosphere at Marche
Especially their signature mushroom soup..
Actually wanted to eat sakae sushi but change of mind..lol..
Step up 3 movie was awesome to the max..
Baby also find it awesome..
Kept asking me alot of qn after that..
So cute...

I really do miss dancing...
really...
But i feell..
Drifted from dance...

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-- 31 august --
Simple 1st monthsary

A simple day spent together indirectly watching the sunset from Orchard central rooftop
if baby didnt mention it i wouldnt have realise it
was supposed to watch avatar but couldnt find it at either PS GV nor Grand Cathay
And it sucks when i tried to search using my retrieve phone
Functions that i lost touch of how to use
Anger and frustration build up and lucky baby decided to just eat and fill up our stomach
Off we went to have sakae sushi..
Everything was perfect till i realise my 'aunt' decided to visit me at that moment
Causing even more frustration
Baby was caring to understand and coax me to eat..
His first time seeing me throw temple and having my major mood swing..
OOO so poor thing..
So end up i didnt take any pic of our awesome food we had..
Which is rare if ya know my pattern..
Guess i just totally lost the mood to do so..
But exploring the rooftop of orchard central was fun to do so..
I behave like a small kid as usual..
LOL...wah-ing at the scene and sight of the beautiful scenary..lol..
And we had Ben and Jerry ice-cream at HEAVEN'S LOFT
So sweet and a lovely place..
So let me get the pictures talking..

Till here then....
Xoxo
Phoebe aka Perfectionist

2010-08-24T14:27:00.015+08:00

18-08-10

Had an awesome mini outing with Alicia! Went for waxing and also pedi/manicure... Had an awesome fun time camwhoring... To Alicia - u owe me another date!! LOL Brought new bag n heels.. But end up lazy take picture... So pictures below of us camwhoring... =>

Inntroducing Alicia!

Our nails!

We bought the same bracelet

oooo eyes big big...

Poloroid

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23-08-10

Finally like send my pooooorrr samsung wave for repair... Separated from it....oooo so sad... But nvm...Baby bought me to an awesome place! A place i wanted to go always but didnt dare step in! Yesterday i got that chance to enjoy the ambience! ITS CALLED
= TEA COSY =
highly recommend to go..
Though food wasnt that awesome...
But totally love the decorations and ambience...

Signing off
= Phoebe aka Perfectionist =

2010-08-11T22:02:00.009+08:00

To celebrate National Day @ A&E aint fun..
I totally slept throughout that 8 hours of monitoring..
nothing major...
Guess i was jus over exhausted
My body couldn't take it..
Just ended my 3 days mc..
Tomorrow going back for work..
And parent is banning me from dance...so sadded...!!

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Went to SHOKUDO Japanese Food Bazzar today..
I would say it will be my first and last time going there..lol..
Food aint that awesome..
Service aint that good..
Dont feel the welcoming feeling to go back there for another meal..
well..let pictures do the talking then...=>

Phoebe Au

2010-07-29T21:10:00.003+08:00

Its been a long time since i last blog..
Coming to two months i guess?
Blog rotting and collecting dust..
Guess i just didnt have that mood to blog since....
you know my last entry..
That took me quite sometime to be over it..
I still do miss him sometimes...
I still keep his cage.....

Well back to topic here..
Within this period that i have been MIA
Alot of things happen...
So many things happen such that
I feel i am at lost what to do..
I use to be such a complicated person..
But yet now..
What i am yearning for is just simplicity..

Ignorance is BLISS..
I wish everyone could attain that level..

Lets see..
My schedule now is always work and dance
Met someone well not that close like last week
An aquaintance i guess..
Someone stayed the same block as me
Qn - ' What is my ultimate carrer path?'
Qn - 'It seems like you are dancing and working at the same time.'
Qn - ' Are you intending to be a full time dancer after your bond?'
Well i wish i could..
But that only happen in dreams..
It use to be..But now i just treat it as a passion..
Something i can still connect with my old friends and releash my unhappiness
Something that can make me forget about everything for that moment..

Not alot of stuff goes the way we want it to be
My mindset has change..
To accept everything that comes my way..
Not being complacent here..
If you catch what i mean
Simply its
' The more you expect and request, the more it wont be yours'
This is what more or less i am going through
What i have now may not be the perfect way i want it to be
What i have now may not seems lasting or even acceptable in other people eyes
But happiness is what i feeel now..
So i guess ultimately its the feeling and care i recieve that matters..

Phoebe
- The Perfectionist with imperfection in her life -

2010-06-20T14:40:00.006+08:00

RETROSPECTIVE ENTRY FROM
15-06-10 1030am

*It can be heartwrenching to see the pictures
*So Do exit if ya doesnt want to see it

It happen 5 days ago
It took me this long to pen down this entry
It took me this long to be able not to cry whenever its name is being brought up
It took me this long to forget about the pain

I couldnt excatly rmb what actually happen/ how it happen
Mayb i do rmb deep down
But now it seems blurry
Can be a sign of me covering it up subconsicously
All i just know it happen too fast and too sudden
Just the night before i was thinking of wanting to cuddle it in my hands
But i was too tired
And now i am left with no chance
To see it happily running around
To see it biting my skin
To see it looking at me innocently for food
To see it keep drinking water

As i cuddle it on my hands
Seeing it limp with no sign of life in it
My heart wrench
My flood of tears drop
Seriously i didnt know how to handle it
Lucky got pew ard..
To help me manage it burial

I love you pudding
Like everyone else have told me
You be somewhere watching me
And you are glad to have me as your owner
Likewise
I would like to say
You are the best hamster i ever have
Even though you are the naughtiest and greediest

Perfectionist

Good bye

2010-06-10T00:01:00.002+08:00

I aint that strong
So stop asking if i am alright
....
Episode of sleepless night
following with morning shift of work
sucks to the max

I need a drink
STAT!
That is if there is any..
Need to numb that little bit of feelings
Even though its already sort of numb..
So anyone in for it?
But...
I aint got that time
So its just gonna be bottle up inside
period..

Perfectionist
* No longer that perfection anymore*

2010-05-25T23:18:00.011+08:00

MY POOR PUDDING

Today was suppose to be my REST day aka FREE from DOCTORS!
But yet seeing a VET DR instead!
keex
Baby came over , was suppose to go get her shoes and Slack..
But baby played with PUDDING..
Realise that pudding has a hole at the stomach region..
deciding that its weird and we haven reali seen it there before
we decided to faster get PUDDING to a vet ASAP
so we ended up in a clinic call NAMLY Clinic
ooo I TELL YOU!
PUDDING IS SO DARN NAUGHTY!
see pretty vet doctor then didnt bite remain guai guai there
Allow the Doctor to Shave its stomach area too!
NOT FAIR!
Then when baby and me want scoop him up he BITE!
But it turns out to be there is really some pus coming out from the umblicus area
Spend 42 bucks for consultation and cream
Not that i mind just so long he is fine i'm happy alr!
So brought him out for a tour
From Bouna Vista to Beach road to Bishan
Lucky pet seh huh...LOL
But anw he slpt throughout...
HE IS OVERWEIGHT BTW!
The vet say he is too big size for its age...LOLOL!!!
My mom lo keep feeding!

Baby still manage to get her shoes..=>
And i manage to get my name chop done at Bishan...=>
Took few pics too!

Today is totally a STRESS RELIEVE DAY!
If ya know wad i mean!
*looking at baby!*
keez..

Perfectionist

2010-05-16T22:54:00.037+08:00

JURONG BIRD PARK

Am back after so long...
keex..like finally huh??
Met up with BABY today at 11am..
Had early lunch at Ajisen Ramen
seriously their chicken wing is nice!
Went to mondo and finally got my short black heels for graduation
And and..additional one new pumps!
ooo ooo...
Gotta packed my shoes!
Throw away unwanted and spoiled shoess..
IF NOT
mom's nagging gonna start anytime soon!

Head down to Boon Lay and catch bus 194 to JURONG BIRD PARK
Yea...today is sightseeing of the birds!
ooo.. i got all so excited upon reaching the entrance..
But baby got even more excited knowing there are penguins for her to see..
Jurong bird park is very small that we can finish walking within 3 hrs?
I got to snap alot pics of my favourite bird - LOVE BIRD
But i tell you
they are darn greedy and omg flying everywhere
Went to lory loft
intended to feed the love birds with the food
And woah..one bunch came swaming down and landed on baby shoulder
HELL NO am i allowing their claws to jam into my skin
I dodge and pass the food to baby
and oh..poor her..
she have to feed and tahan them squeaking in her ears
But she look darn cute and happy...=>
And i sweat darn lot inside the lory loft
not because its hot inside..infact kinda cooling
But i got so paranoid and cautious to make sure they dun fly to me
My heart cant stop thumping so hard that i having cold sweats
keex...so unglam =X
I enjoyed there though alot of walking to be done
But its really nice..=>
Thank you!

Head back to jurong point
Bought my black bottom pants for graduation from DANO
Like finally and its back to the first shop that i initally wanted to get my stuff from
Had our dinner and we left for home sweet home..
so nice=>

Tml will start having shift roster
Am on PM shift
First time doing PM shift there
i wonder how is it like
I just know i am SCARE!
What to expect?
just wish me LUCK!

Bus 194

First pic of the day!

A peck on the forehead

Baby likes this pic

And i like this pic

And i play with her spects

And ooo..REACH ALR!

OUR TICKETS

See i am so darn happy!

Baby so excited to see her penguin

Her favourite

So cute!

My favourite!

Oooo..So relax in a cage

Nah...dun think of trapping me!

ello ello...

=>

Baby peacock roaming ard

This..yes you keep following us!

Adult peacock!

Waterfall!

Baby feeding!

She so happy!

I spot this lovebird playing with the bottle!

Give me somemore!

Thank you baby!

= PeRfEcTiOnIsT =

NEW WARD PLACEMENT!

2010-05-03T20:48:00.002+08:00

Hey there..
Like i mention..
I will be getting my ward posting today...
And so...
The final verdict
WARD 64 rehab..

And ya know whats the funny part?
In year 2 of my diploma..
I was contemplating which area i would want to expand in..
i kinda decided that i wanna go to rehab area
And then now
TADAH
IT just decided to fulfill what i wish for in year 2

HAPPY? SAD? CONFUSED? DILEMMA?
Well..i would say its a mixture
C class ward
Busy ward i heard
Nice environment to work with i heard
Nice co workers to have i heard
So is it really that AWESOME?
And and and
RABIAH is also working in Ward 64
ooo..so coincidence!
hrr..
Maybe will get to see her more often..
Anw...duno why my mom is so much more enthu than me
Even so much enthu that i am getting this ward

well anw...
Gonna be going the ward tml
Shall check it out
And update again how was it..
Till here..

Perfectionist

2010-05-01T19:50:00.005+08:00

The pic i promise baby i will upload
Her birthday gift for my 21st Birthday last year
So awesomely done up
Nice and so much effort put in..
Love it lots

Hi ya...Another weekend again..
Labour day..
Daddy's Birthday
Just had a very full dinner
Such long time since i had such a proper full dinner
mm...feeling ooo so full...

Yesterday meet up with baby
Caught KICK ASS movie
M18..
In a super ultra small cinema at cine
Its so darn violent and gruesome
seeing a kid killing ppl here and there
With bloods splashing around
Worse what's more to see the person being burned alive to death
-_- That scene i super duper cant take it
I CRIED
OMG! after so long so many movies i watched
It has always been baby crying at touching scenes
NOW its me! its me!
Baby cant help but being fancinated for the reason
WHY I CRIED
LOL
Talk alot things out..
Mainly me telling you how i feel and stuff
I guess i do feel insecure alot of times
I dont say i keep quiet
My my body language shows
And you pick it up..
I'm glad i dont know how long this gonna last
But i know i will figure a way out from there

Watched Hachiko today at baby house!
Its such a darn sad movie can!!
Baby cried..
I cried...
LIKE AGAIN
The dog is so awesomely adorable!!!
How i wish i own a dog!
=<

Lately..
I'm not myself
Ask me why
I wonder too
Lost of appetite
Ate damm so little
except for the dinner just now that i force myself to eat
Getting lethargic so easily
Dont feel good about myself
Dont feel confident about myself
Dont even feel comfortable in my own skin
Maybe its just a dark period i'm going through
I hope it will wear off soon

Perfectionist

2010-04-27T21:28:00.002+08:00

I think my blog can officially start to ROT and grow SPIDERS WEB
Hrrr..
Since so long i blogged..
I've recovered! yeyness
Though my chest still feel very tight with phlegm that refuses to be spit out
Daddy couldnt stop nagging for me to see doctor
But i'm like 'What's the pt?'

One week has already passed
One week of foundation training
And now is the second week
I would say
Lots of notes to copy
And
Lots of sleeping time =X
Some lectures i just dont get it..
They jus kept repeating one after another
Anw, ward allocation still not out
Progress so god damn slow
And this is what has been keeping me in suspense
I WANT TO KNOW MY WARD ALLOCATION
or rather which ward i will die at! LOL
kidding =X
Received our Name Chop!
Woots
My big name inprinted on it!
AU WEE FONG
oh my tian...-_- feels so stress

Went for my Endocrine appt today during foundation prog
Manage to get the doctor to sign it for me as urgent scan
If not god knows when i will be able to settle my medical status
But well...Still gotta wait till next tue for the final verdict..
I guess it shouldnt be of much problem
Kena poke without being told what was going on
And i have to go like
' uh..What are you doing with my hand?'
'Take blood?'
Someone : 'uh..no no..inject medication for the thyriod scan'
-_-
cant you just tell me what is going on?
Scare me and it aint that comfy..
Blood taking is also tortuorous
I have two poke marks on my right hand and left arm
sadded..
Spend a total of 200 plus
JUST TO HOPE TO CLEAR MY MEDICAL STATUS!
WTF!
haiz...
And now i'm that broke..very broke..
I WANT MY DESERVED PAY!

Till here..
More updates coming up...

Perfectionist
Phoebe

2010-04-21T18:59:00.001+08:00

I'm Sick
Officially Sick
Flu
Cough
Fever
Cramps
all attack me at once
How wonderful
Sucky..
Dont like the feeling!!
Thanks Baby for sending me home

Perfectionist

2010-04-18T21:26:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow
Start of another new part of life
NURSE LIFE!
seriously i would say nurse job is considered a job that i do have passion in
but can i able to take it?
PRCP over and it seems ok for me
Though there are hard times too
But to work as a official certified nurse!
It seriously takes alot of courage to wear on that uniform
And tml i am doing so
PRESSURIZE!
ooo..
And i bet i wont be able to sleep well tonight too
Just have to say
wish me luck!

*Feels so unprepared*

Perfectionist

2010-04-16T01:22:00.003+08:00

Irritating HR call us back at bloody 9am
Said briefing till 12pm
Then...end up collect transcript
NameTag
And poof 10am BYE BYE
Waste my time to travel all the way down can
And most impt is my slp lo!!!

OH NO..i cannot imagine myself as a STAFF NURSE seriously
I be called by
Sisters
Fellow collegeue
Patient

AS

NURSE AU

OMT!
KILL ME!

Perfectionist

2010-04-12T20:38:00.002+08:00

Money aint everything
Do you realise?
But i reckon in this society that without money you aint gonna survive
Who doesnt know that right?
But do you seriously have to push blame so u dont have to fork out money?
I'm not saying i'm some pampered princess that wants u to provide for me
I am soon to be a working adult..
I know how hard it is to earn money
I'm sorry that i would have to ask from you money for my ENT appt
I dont know how much it is going to cost
But judging from you an experience frequent consumer of SGH
You know better than me the pricing cost for first consultation
If i am able to i would have just use my own money
OR RATHER
If i have the chance to turn back time
I wouldnt have just told the bloody irritating doctor about my ear condition
And then
I wouldnt have to be schedule for appt
Wouldnt have to attend appt tml
And most of all wouldnt have to ask money from you
ALL IN ALL
Its a mistake from the start
I shld have just kept my mouth tight shut!

Perfectionist

2010-04-11T23:36:00.026+08:00

National Museum With Jess and SA

Woke up early morning at 9plus..
laze in bed ended up changing meeting timing to 12
Caught up with helping dad with something
ended late for meeting...keke..
Head down to National Museum at Dhoby Ghuat
Went in History Gallery side first..
The staff handed us a PDA look alike gadget
Except that it doesnt have a touch screen
You have to press whenever u reach a number indicated on the floor
And everything will be explained to you
And how amazing the way they connect the system
That u can also in sync watch the vid they showing and hearing it through your earphones
Journey throughout was damn long
It has 99 numbers for us to press
But actually they did skip a few numbers
Or did we skip and miss some routes?
But wadeva it was so darn confusing and brrr...COLD!
I wore sleevless, SA wore T-shirt Jess wore shorts!
Imagine we are freezing cold inside!
Anyway it was really quite informative
But dont ask me what have i learned!
I will just summarize as
'I have come to learn alot of how singapore have emerge from a village to modern city'
FULLSTOP
THANK YOU
hehehee...Next we go to the Living gallery
Which is kinda pathetic small and limited with 4 different place to go
- Fashion Gallery (Chiong to go in!)
- Flims and Wayang (which we dont even dare to step in further)
- Food Gallery (That we ended up feeling hungry)
- Photography
No pic in gallery taken
The sign outside put a camera sign slash but with words of 'No flash'
So can take or cannot take?
I was contemplating throughout the whole sightseeing
OH my tian..then ended better not take any..LOL

After museum we headed off to PS and ate late lunch at kopitiam
Walk round and round PS aimlessly
PS is so darn boring now!
Ended up apporoach by a skin shop sales person
Ended up me and sa filling in member notification form for them
Then having able to take polariod pictures and pin it to their notice board
Initally only able to take 2
1 for their board 1 for us to keep
But duno why uh ended up the sales person ask whether each of us wanna keep one each
So yea we each have one of our own
So coolz orhs..
Think we are too pretty to be resisted...
=X
ok dont vomit please..
AT LEAST WE LOOK DECENT
haha..
Went to The Society Cafe and chill
oooo..
Jess ordered Macharito
All of us seriously thought was some decent size cup
Ended up pop out to be one darn small pathetic cup
We were jaw drop seriously and couldnt stop being amazed
LOL seriously!!
Sat there for like an hr plus and headed back home with a full stomach
So i ended up only drinking soup for my dinner
And i'm still feeling full..
hoho...
Not much of an appetite already..
ok then... till here...
Pictures time!!
Enjoy!

Going up the escalator to the galleries

The ultimate swinging Lights

SA

Jess

The sprial Staircase

3 of us

Jess

SA

Me

ooo..so bright

mm..nicer

mm too dark

The ultimate cold wind!

SEE sa have to hold her hair

And i'm the most calm one! lol

brrr...cold

Tahan the wind!

Smaller wind..hee

It look so nice and peaceful

Resting area

Here comes the pathetic small macharito

Say bye bye!!

Perfectionist

2010-04-07T23:17:00.018+08:00

WElCOME TO PERFECTIONIST POST!

05-04-10 Monday

Dragon Movie & Essential Brew

Dragon movie was so awesome!

TOOTHLESS IS SO AWESOMELY CUTE CAN!

Watched with baby and her collegue..

Fun people to hang out with..=>

Oooo…her trainer bought her reward

Two stitch neck support

So awesome so cute!

One for her one for me

We name it 'Bur Bur' & 'Be Be'

Derive from Baby!

Aww…so sweet…

Had lunch at Border’s Bistro at Wheelock place

Nice ambience, nice food but guess I choose the wrong one?

Got sick of eating it when I haven’t even touch half of it..

Head down to Holland V

Had simple dinner and chill out at an awesome place

‘Essential Brew’

I love the ambience, the way how they make their consumer comfy

Sat there for like 2 hours

Talk and eat and drink

Had Brownie with macademia ice cream..

Head back home after that on a long journey bus ride.

Nice ambience

Relaxing on the couch

Chocolate brownie with macademia icecream

Baby with Stitch

Tired

Smell u

smilex

lalala

Act zhuai

She is really tired

Sleep still can smile

Bouborn coke & Kamikazi

I love reading reader's digest!

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07-04-10

Happy 7^th monthsary

I enjoyed myself today

Did something outrageous I never did today

Hope you enjoy and like it..

Thanks for your song dedicated to me

I’m touched..

Love the song totally

Thank you and (‘V’) ya

Phoebe Aka Perfectionist

2010-04-04T16:31:00.023+08:00

02-04-10 Good Friday

Marina Hot Pot Session

It’s Good Friday!

Baby had half day off so met her up at amk stn

I finally bought my vest from Cotton On..

So awesome, baby was there to gauge for me..

Worth or not worth.. LOL

I also ordered my contact lenses and due for collection on coming Tuesday

At last my eyes won’t be dry all day long

Head down to Marina Sq and had our dinner

HOTPOT Buffet

Baby first time eating there..

We indeed ordered a lot of foods that we sat there for 2hours

No pictures taken because I’m simply too lazy

Oooo.. So full that baby couldn’t even walk properly

Had to sit down for digestion to take place

After much rest, we shop around for the last hour

And I bought new bracelet, it’s colorful!

Oh my, I’m like so into colorful bracelet nowadays.

Not those shiny colorful kind but more of handmade beads kind..

Ending the day with quarrel isn’t the way I wanted it to be

That night made me realize how numb I’ve become to

Regarding about the unsolvable issue

Within a night

I experience heartache, happiness like a rollercoaster

It sucks

To have heartache knocking on your door of your heart

Next with consoling happiness

And then a smacking harsh sentence to my face again

I just simply doesn’t know how to face you

But all in all

I stated my stand

I said whatever I can

I cried like I never did

I ignore your lovely actions for me when I can

Finally I would say its solve

And I sincerely hope

IT WON’T SURFACE AGAIN

I can’t tahan another torturing round

03-04-10 Saturday

Expo Hall Fair’s Indulgement

Starting the day with an awesome wakeup call from mummy

Time to go temple with her to offer prayers at freaking 330am

Head out of house at 4am

Reach Temple at 420am

Oooo..i slept barely 3hrs considering what happen the previous night

My freaking eyes can’t even open properly

And even more thanks to the joss stick smoke that causes my sinus to be triggered

I read my storybook while waiting for the ceremony prayers to start

It took an hr to end everything

And I head home back on my bed at the dot at 6am

Slept till 9plus and head down school for dance

Choreographing is really not so awesome when

I’m in such a down mood & sleepy mode

Nevertheless at least something was being done

Head down amk and had Korean food as lunch with baby and SY

Walk around before going for my Expo Fair’s

There is actually

- Courts Megatex Fair

- MPH book fair

- Branded Stuff Fair

And oh oh..i wanna complain!!

Those irritating people at expo has been misleading a lot of people to a stairway

As usual me being the blur one

Leading me to think that its actually the branded sales queue

I thought to myself

‘wa…so many people? Is the sales that awesome?’

But as we queue it seems wrong

We headed back down and saw another link way to the branded sales

So angry that we wasted our time we confronted one of the usher

And it turn out to be the earlier queue we went for was CHURCH SERVICES!

--_--

Bloody hell lo..

But nvm!! We did bought some awesome stuff

- Imation Hard disk

- Earpiece for baby mum

- Fossil Belt for baby

- 1 music book for baby

- 2 story books for myself

Had Ramen at bugis for dinner

And end of the day with bouncing of train back home

I enjoyed myself

Phoebe
Perfectionist

2010-04-02T15:10:00.002+08:00

OMG!
I feel so lousy now!
Having aches all over
Especially not to mention over my neck to shoulder region
I cant look down!
Its as though my whole neck spine is being paralysed!
Must have whip too much yesterday
Oooo... and mention about this...
Yesterday dance class was so awesome
Oh..i sweat so much that my bra was wet!
Shar's too...opps...=X
HAHA...
I need INSPIRATION for 'Yesterday' choreo!
oh man..it sucks...
Just keep listening and listening
But nothing comes to me!!
Shucks...SUCKS!!

How long do i have to dance anyway..
Sad thing...
Shhh..
Dont Remind me
Let me indulge in this last few moments of dancing
Freely

2010-03-31T21:22:00.008+08:00

Ello!!
=>
Today was another Rotting session at home!
Treasa Sis also stayed home to study..
So we decided to play a little mini game
Whatever task we accomplished we will take a pic of it
And blog about it
So here my post come with pics of the stuff i have done
and no doubt also with my self obsessed pic of myself
Taken using my webcam!
YES
I'm that bored that webcam photo taking session
Has become a routine if i were to stay at home for the day!

Task Accomplished
1) Make Breakfast for me and baby
2) Eating Lunch (judging that i always skip)
3) Read my new bought storybook

I cant stand my MUM!
Esp when she keep feeding my PUDDING
And always assume I DONT FEED
What the
Even if i feed also not at her rate of feeding
Spoil my PUDDING onli
throwing pile of food into food dish
each time she come back home
Aren't you just making my PUDDING
Picky with his food!
And no wonder he only eat new food given
Refuses Food in the dish that was just put in last night!
Thanks ah!

BreakFast

My lunch
*i know not healthy, dont try lecturing me!*

The Pages i hold that i have read..

ok..ultimate bored habit is here with pictures!

i'm Really BORED

Notice the change of emotions icon i input
Because simply i cant do all this expression

Perfectionist
Phoebe

2010-03-29T21:36:00.006+08:00

Send baby for work today..
Met her at 11, had subway as breakfast..
Walk ard clark quay awhile
bought new pen for her and a notebook for her future savings
A new earphones for myself =>
Purple in colour..
So awesome..
Off to PS and walk ard myself..
Went to Times Bookstore and woots
I bought 4 books in a row
Yey..i'm kinda a book geek
I love reading story book
But i have a book by jodie picoult i totally dont understand
I dont like the way its structured
I just left it hanging there
Did i finish a chapter? i dont know..=X
Bought sticker crystal too for my nails
Hee...so awesome..gotta be abit hard to do stuff
But i wont be able to have nice nails in coming future if ya know why
=<
So i shall grab the chance now..muhahaha..
And and..
I really wanna buy one vest from cotton on..
29.95 bucks
I really want..
=<
but i dont dare
Dont even know if suits me
I'm just use to having baby beside me when i shop
She will just follow me ard quietly and giving me opinions
Awww...sadded...
I WANT THE VEST!!!
hmpf..
nvm..

Oh..ya..i have yet to rant abt one retarded stuff!
SGH actually forget to update system
And mistakely given me one full month pay when it shld be pro-rated
And now what? called and sms me saying
'Please return 492.59 bucks to HR by 9th apr'
And not to mention telling me
' Please do give excate amt as no change will be given'
WTH
if i give 492.60 bucks
Do u seriously think i will care abt that tiny weeny
0.01 cents?
Gosh..
Go and bang the wall please!!

ok enuff..
Pictures of the stuff i bought..
happy...
=>

its a inspirational book
I love this sort of book
Dont ask me why

Series of Books with
'Devil wears Prada' along with other books

My new purple earphones!

And the shiny sticker crystal nicely on my nails

Phoebe
Perfectionist

2010-03-28T13:04:00.043+08:00

26-03-10

Sister's Outing Day

Met up Treasa sis at 10plus
Headed down for free waxing session at clarkquay
Smooth smooth my leg has become..=>
Still i do have some abit allergic reactions
to the waxing gel and constant pulling..
Itchiness and slight redness
Had Thai Express as lunch
Then we went down to Suntec Convention hall
Hoping to get some stuff from the sales at one of the halls
But.. turned out everything so small..
So restricted..
Nothing was bought..
Change target..
Walk around suntec
Change target again
Walk around Fareast
Had Wanton Noodle as Dinner
The fried wanton is nice..=>
Can you imagine walking for the whole day
And i only manage to buy one nail polish remover pad
And ok la..one new red bracelet
To think back i actually wanted to shop my heart out..
But nothing caught my eye seriously..
Maybe i'm just to picky..
Quality and presentation of the stuff i want is important
Treasa sis bought make up and perfume and bracelet
At least more things than me..lol..
Urge to drink is kinda strong
So headed down back to clark quay..
Went to Yellow Jello Retro Bar
Sit down-drink-relax-talk
I like it...

ok...Pictures below..=>

After waxing

Our smooth legs

Hello!

Thai Express

Our Lunch

My fav dessert from thai express

Our dinner!

Night scenery at Clark Quay

Treasa sis

ME

Our bracelet

Treasa sis with her drink 'Illusion'

Me with my drink 'Tequilia Sunrise'

Drunk? nope..hehe

Drunk??? nope..haha

Snap Snap

Hmpf!

Say HI

Say Hello

Our phone...

Had a great day
Thank you sis..

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27-03-10
Outing With Baby!

Hello...hehe..
What i want to say is..suppose to watch 'Dragon'
End up watching 'Whip it'
Well..still nice and its a good movie
Worth to watch
But couldnt help sulking throughout though
BECOS I REALLY WANT TO WATCH 'DRAGON'
Bad timing i guess..
Everyone in the whole singapore chiong-ing for the show
Maybe shld have just waited for next sat
Like how my baby has promised me!
So happy liao..waiting...waiting..
Baby brought me to Thomson Road for lunch at
'Miss Clarity Cafe'
French crusine
Awesome!
Love the serving portion,decoration,ambience and services
And i must say baby officially make me fall in love with Fresh Onion Soup
Favourite Soup list
- Mushroom soup from 'Marche'
- Chili Soup from 'Chilis'
- Fresh Onion Soup from 'Miss Clarity Cafe'
Ate very full..Couldnt stop smiling after that..=>
At night Baby got feel to drink..
So we went to cuppage
And just randomly went into one of the bar
'Cable Car bar'
Nice ambience but too hot..
Apparently air con was down
Nice drinks but weird people there
All loner ppl drinking there..lol..
Baby has to go and withdraw money from centerpoint
I kinda scared to stay alone there so i got her on phone
to accompany me and chat while she go get money
Met up with sy after that and sat around chatting for awhile
before heading home

Pictures!

So cute rite the menu!

Every table has a lamp to it..

Its a small cafe but cosy

Baby just loves to eat..=>

OMG! u must try the pre-starter
ITS AWESOME
Too bad its not for sale on menu
If not i think baby would order one big plate

ME..

Surrounding so cute

Our table number

Baby

Potato soup and Fresh Onion soup

Steak

Chicken Drumstick

Caramalise Apple crumble

Chocolate ice cream with cream puff

Cable Car Bar

Looking through menu

Baby drink - Cape Cod
My drink - Volka Lime

Snap in action

sian?? nope not when i'm ard..lol

Phoebe
Perfectionist

2010-03-26T00:44:00.002+08:00

Chest Pain
Occurs for a few times
Last longer than expected
Suppresses my breathing
Limited my movement of upper body

What is wrong?
Stress...Nope
Not enough rest...Maybe
What else?
Sinus phlegm stuck there...Possible..
Oh god...see the posibility that i thought of..
Feel so stupid..

Will get it check at polyclinic soon...
soon...

And i'm still feeling the squeezing pain now when i breathe..

Perfectionist
Phoebe

2010-03-24T21:35:00.011+08:00

23rd March Tuesday

Met up with Shar,SA,Rabiah and choo
Got our Ben & Jerry FREE CONE ICECREAM
So awesome!
Choo acted like some auntie while queueing in the line
"Must fill up the space!" as mention by choo..LOL
Went back to school and did a new choreography
"Happy" By Leona Lewis
together with SA and Shar..
So awesome..
Gonna continue to choreo the front part of the song linking to chorus
Kinda hard but will still try..=>

Our icecream

US!

24th March Wednesday

Woke up today with ultimate muscle aching!!
My inner thigh,butt and left knee!!!
OMT...didnt want to get out of bed
Mummy chase me out!!!
Suppose to meet up with Jess
But she wasnt feeling well so i got to stay home and ROT..
Played Petville, Played PetSociety
YES I"M THAT BORED
Still nothing to do...
So....
I started to play with my webcam
And took retarded pictures of myself
and and and
Also pictures with my Mummy!!
She wants me to develop the pictures
So she can put inside her wallet..
Sweet huh...hehe...
Staying home practically has nothing for me to do..
Even went to youtube
watch 'You're Beautiful'
Korean drama series? not my type..
But i'm bored to the extent of giving it a try..
Ok..watched 1st ep..
Not bad...Funny..
Shall continue watching..

Ok...I forgot to mention
I got A for my attachment and PRCP!
So awesome right???
And it pulled my GPA up back to my 3.2!!!
hehe...

Pictures time!!

I'm bored..HELP ME SAVE ME!

BLEHX..Show u my tongue

Angry angry angry

okok..i shut up..Dont shoot me!!

Me and mummy..
She likes this picture

Haa...smile till my eyes small small

She addicted to taking picture? LOL

Ending off with a random picture..

Perfectionist
Phoebe

2010-03-22T20:49:00.014+08:00

21st March Sunday

Supported Nick for his performance for Jitterbugs recital show at The Matrix Auditorium
I swear it was so damn ulu... no lights on the pathway..
Walk one big round to find the building..
Went in lucky haven yet started..
I would say the show was good..
Defintely eye-opener for me..
Saw my idol dance!!!
She's damn HOT and dope can!!
Awww...*Dream to dance like her*
LOL
Anyway Nick done very well..
Saw him did TAP i was like 'woah'
Totally see his passion for dance..
Go NICK *wink*
Of cause there are some pictures taken after his show..=>

Refuse to face camera

Still refusing - Dare to twist somemore

Me and Nick

Baby with Nick

Siew yin with Nick

22nd March Monday

Went over to baby house and watch LakeHouse
Hee...My baby has downloaded it for like century just because i wanted to watch
till then did i really watch the show
And its nice..
Touching and i like the twist to the ending
Though i nearly fell asleep in between becos too draggy...-_-
Went and had lunch at Lot One..
And walk ard in courts sourcing for lappy,phones and harddrive..
My retarded LAPTOP.... seems like crashing yet doesnt want to crash
Now its keypad functions resume...-_-
How retarded is this lo...
Sat at the rooftop and talk and chill..
Taken some pictures...
Failed panaroma shot and SMILE SHOT..
Baby so fascinated by the smile shot..lol..
Send Baby off for work..

I'm a retarded freak that only care about myself..
At least that's what i realise nowadays..

Love this pic...=>

Baby tired...

Failed panaroma shot

Baby SMILE SHOT

My SMILE SHOT

Perfectionist

2010-03-21T12:25:00.002+08:00

Marina Barrage performance was just like a norm
With only own nyp-ians supporting..
Pratically had no crowd at all due to the rain..
That just makes it as though we are dancing in a studio to ourself
Just that now no mirror in xchange with an open space environment..

Went to PS and walking aimlessly ard for awhile before deciding to have dinner at HK cafe
Seriously i dont have appetite nowadays, just ate halfboil egg with a cup of milk tea, that's it
Had this little lettering naming game, fun and fast..
Woah..my mind sometimes do think a little too slow..
In e end we opted to watch kidnapper...
My first time saying a local movie that is worth watching..
Though some part was kinda sadistic
But i simply love the plot and the twist being used..
Mindgames i will say that they included in this show..
I LIKE.. LOL
you know i know sometimes i do like to play mind games... =P

Avoidance is a trait that everyone possess
Whether a not you allow it to take over your mind is one matter..
Witnessing how torment it can cause a person just because of one selfisness to avoid..
It dawns on me the existing prob that we always have that appeared to be solved but apparently not
So i decided to talk things out and clear
State my stand that i never use to do so in the first place..
I know it hurts, i know that its hard for you to accept..
I know that it will takes time for you..
But because of one mistake it leads to another..
I understand and will patiently hope one day
you can fully place your trust on me..

The word TRUST
simple yet misleading
Depending on how you interpret it..

Perfectionist

2010-03-19T21:44:00.001+08:00

Slept at 3am last night
woke up 1045am
Total MAJOR muscle aches around my upper back & arms
More towards the right arm..
Lacking the strength to carry stuff
Even got sharp pain shooting down to my fingers..

I'm so used to waking up in the morning at excatly 1045am
Shall i consider adjusting back my time eariler?
Which means i have to sleep eariler..
well..slowly i guess..
Which never will really come..
lol..

Packed my moutaineous of clothing this morning..
Packed away 4 plastic bags of clothing ready to be given away
Major acheivement?
Not like alot ppl can wear my clothing given my size..
But still.. doing charity works is good isnt it?
Doesnt even matter if its kids that is wearing my clothes..
Spoken to mummy regarding my retarded laptop
Its not functioning well
in fact for a very long time already
Told her that i wanted a new laptop as mine is already like falling apart
I'm even using an external keyboard to type this post now..
Pathetic..
Surprisingly mum said she will pay 1000bucks for my laptop and to top up the rest myself
My jaw went opening WIDE..
I'm like are you serious?
Shall get myself an external harddisk first before my new laptop comes..

Met up with shar and got my blue sports bra..
I'm like slowly in love with wearing sports bra..
But no i wont give up my normal fancy bras too..LOL
Hope shar feels better after our big time conversational let out ranting..
LOL..

I dont understand why does MONEY always become a big issue
Witness my parents from bickering to big time quarral
Just over dinner
About whaT?
Money..yes money..
Shooting me Qns and i go uh-uh...
Totally ruin my appetite..
I ate only like 1/4 of normal rice bowl with i think..mm..4 pieces of duck meat?
Thanks ah..totally thanks..

Perfectionist

2010-03-19T00:55:00.019+08:00

17th march..
Baby back from phuket!

Met up with baby at amk platform..
So happy to see baby...
Went to PS ate ramen ten..
Totally got not much appetite to eat..
Half of my bowl was actually eaten by baby
Think my gastric has shrunken to half of its original size..lol..
Went to get my french nails done=)
Its nice nice... i just love pampering myself sometimes

Had a movie at Cineleisure
'Cop Out'
It was kinda a funny movie..
There is just this one guy in the show that is so irritating
I felt like boxing him literally if i was in that scene.. =X
Sat randomly at walking pavements along orchard road
Watching ppl walk by and listening to baskers singing
Wind blowing strong against us
I love the feeling beside you..
Although affected by some minor minor stuff..kinda retarded
But nvm, glad we straighten things out..=)

Saw this person posing in the middle of no where..
Baby gave $1 to him and he wink at baby..LOL

And we walk and walk...
Long long way all the way till Tanglin Mall
racking our brain what to eat for dinner
Ended up settling for 'chilis'
Its so cool and nice..
The origin is from Texas
Service crew was damn helpful and polite..
I would say i want to go back in future for another meal..

18th march
Baby joined in for dance session

Images of baby joining us for warm up still lingers in my mind
lol..so cute..seeing her trying her best to try out..
Had supper with her is the best..
Dont need to eat much..
Just small foods and a drink and a heart to heart talk
isnt that nice?
Heard quite alot from Baby this 2 days..
Undergoing so much problems that remain unsolve for 'N' years
I really dont know how to help her
But hoping my listening ear do helps..

*Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.*

I feel honestly nothing in this world is perfect
Neither is LOVE
There is always a selfish part to everything
Love is not as perfect as how it is being put in words
It goes the same for family and friends
Just have to accept reality
It hurts but we have a choice to bring ourself out of it

2010-03-17T01:24:00.001+08:00

waiting waiting waiting waiting

Not back yet..

Not yet..

Why..
Why..
Why??

I'm bored
I'm SAD
I'm moody
I'm angry
I'm down

Perfectionist

2010-03-16T00:08:00.003+08:00

I'm having cramps
ULTIMATE CRAMPS
ULTIMATE BACKACHE
Couldnt stand straight

Hot bathe dont helps
warm water drink dont helps
Cracking my back dont helps
Sitting down dont helps
Standing up dont helps
Massage for myself dont helps

tell me what helps to ease menses cramps??
Dont tell me take painkillers
Cos if you know me
I wont take unless its damn painful till i cant take it
OR
i have impt events or things to see to that needs me to be in proper condition

Tomorrow will be the 2nd day,
And OMT, its gonna just get worse..!!
Why do i have to always suffer such severe pain just because i got
BLOODY cyst in my ovarians!
Think i shall just try applying medicated oil to my abdomen and give it a try
And just SLEEP away the pain
if i can..

My baby will be back tommorow night!
At least something for me to look forward to despite me being in great pain..

I am just always quiet whenever i got menses
I dont like to talk much
Nor do i like people annoying me..
The mood just gets to me sometimes..
It last throughout my menses period..
So ppl,
TAHAN with me ok..
I may snap
I may stare..
But..
I meant no harm..

Phoebe aka Perfectionist

2010-03-14T18:18:00.001+08:00

Chatted with my Baby for awhile on msn just now..
So AWESOME!!
_ _ _ _ you so much!!

2010-03-14T14:26:00.000+08:00

I dont like rainy days..

perfectionist

2010-03-14T11:29:00.010+08:00

Yesterday morning woke up with swollen eyes..
Morning went to get by appt date from polyclinic
Meet up with Treasa (sis) & Sharlene (love) for pepper lunch
Gossip alot and had laughter..
Thank you both for cheering me up..

Went by ECP with sy and fiz n shar for an event..
Didnt went very smoothly..
Rained and mistakes made..
But nvm..its already over..
Most importantly we had fun and alot of laughter *wriggle eyebrow*
Some nice pictures was taken..=)

Following that shar bought us to Somerset 313 Marche to eat
Ooohhh..the food is so nice..!!
Ooo..next time gotta bring Treasa sis to drink the mushroom soup
And and and
Bring my baby to eat the nice nice food!!

The awesome mushroom soup

Chicken cheese sausage with rosti

snail sausage with rosti

rosti with sour cream

Smoke salmon crepe

Following after Marche, we are so god damn full..
Actually is just me and shar..LOL
Sy and Fiz wanted to eat Marvellous Cream
In e end me shar and fiz shared one cup..
Walk around 313
Headed down to Fareast
Walk till our legs nearly wanna break..
By the time i got home,
removed my make up bathe and constant rubbing of my eye..
My eye nearly became one line..

I finally sleep after one night of insomnia..
Dreamed that i and shar had a big time quarral..
OMT..lol..
When i woke up i just couldnt stop laughing..
The quarral is so funny..!

Today i shall ROT the whole day
And finish 'Down with Love' series
And depends if i have the mood
To pack my moutain of clothes back to my wardrobe..

ok then till here..
Ciao..

2010-03-12T22:33:00.028+08:00

Our goodbye
The departure
Too sudden
Too fast
Too abrupt

No matter how much i hated so
Yea its still done already
Stupidly calling your phone
When obviously i knew
you would have already switch off your phone

Stupid me knew that i be so sad
And i be hanging on to my _____
I still stupidly play sad songs on my ipod

Never ____ so much before
Never tried to be so ______ before
But still i ______ to do so
_________ overwhelm me
I'm _____
But i tried
____ hurts
_____ hurts

You have to leave

Sy with baby!

so ke lian slp on chair

Baby lost in jungle?

The sky looks like drama series sky rite?

Baby acting kawaii

Can you call me from there?

smilez even if i am sad

Will i receive your call?

Playful baby

Cooll

so coooll

Back to my crown

I wish....

Baby snapshot me shopping

nice rite?

smilez for the last time

Last pic taken

Cute baby

till then..
gd nights..

= Sucks Day =

2010-03-01T15:36:00.002+08:00

GRUMBLING/COMPLAINING SESSION
SCRAM IF YOU CANT STAND ME!

My whole morning was spent at SGH STAFF CLINIC
Reach there at 9am, registered and done urine test
Then came the 'Your urine test shows traces of blood and protein'
I'm like WTF.. how can such similar events happen to my fren happen to me
Ok.. got my blood taken and redo another urine test..Waste my time..
Waited for doc review..
How happily was i thinking that 'yes, i can go off after this'
And boomz..
The doc bombarded me with alot of qns..
Darn it becos i have medical history records in SGH
- Knee joint pain due to sciatic nerve injury
- Chronic Lower Back Pain

And now cheeek boomz she just created another new medical problem for me
Doc : 'You are very skinny!'
ME : 'Yea i know
Doc : 'Look up and swallow' 'Look down and swallow'
Apparently she is looking at my throat for signs of thyriod problem
ME' 'I have done thyriod function test last year and it show NO ABNORMALITIES!'
NO ABNORMALITIES!!!
Which letter of the word or pronouciation did she dont get it?
Doc : 'No i dont think so.. Your thyriod on your throat looks swollen'
ME : -_- @-@ !-! *-* =_= +-+ !!!!!!
Doc : 'Let's get you and do another thyriod function test!'
ME : *Speechless*
ME : *thinking* THANKS AH!

KAaaa Boomz Another NEW MEDICAL PROB!
Doc : ' Let's check your EAR!'
ME : OMG !!!!
I have always been having lots of ear wax and yellowish discharges!
ITS A NORM for me despite me knowing it could be some infection
I JUST REFUSED TO SEE DOC!
Doc : ' I shall refer you to ENT'
ME : GOD!!! *slap to my face!*
ME : Meaning??
Doc : ' Get the specialist to see your ear and i want a report of your condition!'
ME : HUH? HUH? HUH?
ONCE AGAIN THANKS AH!

Sian Double Sian Triple Sian
That adds on to my waiting time
Wait for referral Appt date
Wait for Thyriod Function Blood Test Invoice
Apparently i have to pay for that
And its FREAKY $56!
WASTE MONEY ON A TEST I JUST DID NOT LONG AGO!!
ARGHH!!
Take away my time of sending my baby to work on her FIRST DAY!
But still glad to see her for that jus fair bit while
=)
Hope she is doing well..

I DONT LIKE MEDICAL CHECK UP
ESPECIALLY WEIRD DOCTORS DOING MEDICAL CHECK UP!

2010-02-27T00:00:00.002+08:00

It seems as if the more we let go, the more we experience love.
Love is beyond everything else - Anxiety,desire,hope,resentment.
Love is openhearted,demands nothing,and needs nothing.
It is more likely to visit when our desires are quiet,when we dont need or want much.
And when we accept that everything we love is not permanent
But is with us at this very moment

Quoted from a insipirational book i'm currently reading now..
Guess i be blogging more of this insiprational words from now on
Till i find no more from this book

Perfectionist

2010-02-21T22:28:00.009+08:00

I HATE MOTION SICKNESS!
Wonder why is my body system so weird..
Does other ppl system works the same as mine??
My motion sickness is kinda very extreme..
I can feel like vomitting the minute i step into the cab..
All cos of the AIR CON
There is just this smell that my gastric will start to regurgitate on its own
It sucks even more when you are stuck in traffic jam!
Went visiting to my relative hse..
To and Fro on cab i nearly felt like vomitting..
Ok enough of this.. now i feel like vomitting alr!!

Ytd Night had a dance performance done together with TT, SA, SHAR and SY
Kinda rusty but i enjoyed alot..
Thanks TT for the chance to perform!
Oooo..I miss dancing with you guys..
I miss the stage!!
I miss Performing..
3mins on the stage just make me feel so shiok..
I'm smiling like no one biz on stage
Totally in my own world..
Thanks Baby for coming down to support!
Really appreciate alot and tahaning my grumpiness..

Baby and me!

TT and me!

SA and me!

SY and me!

SHAR and me!

Phoebe aka Perfectionist