This space has too much memories of the past..
Gonna be starting a new blog soon..
With new beginning and new memories..
Will update soon with my new blog link once its ready...
Love,
Phoebe
♥ 10:09 PM
What is commitment?
After many setbacks...
Gradually i came to realise...
I'm never and will never be the commitment level high kind of person
Commitment scares me...
Not at the inital stage but gradually...
I know i kind of ruin some people life/perception about love..
I dont mean it..
I just got to know what i really want
And i couldnt continue to pretend that i dont care about it
And that i am able to commit to something which freaks me out
So i choose the easiest way out..
To end it...
Which is best for both parties..
I'm sorry i hurt u...
i'm sorry i didnt give any pre-warning
I'm sorry that i'm selfish..
But life is never fair isnt it?
I'm never the kind of gal that
I have a thought/feeling i go talking it out straight away
I keep it...
I think about it...
I decide upon myself...
And release it...
Selfish...
Yes i know...
Which i remembered someone kept telling me that..
Guess its just inborn in me..
I couldnt help it..
I'm brought up to protect myself...
Protect myself ended up hurting someone..
I sometimes do hate myself for being so me...
I know what i want and like now..
Doesnt mean that i have to act on it..
I love the way i am now..
Learnt that never to take things too fast..
That's when problems arise..
I'm taking everything slow..
So...
Sorry again...
Phoebe...
♥ 1:00 AM
My heart is aching
My heart is cursing
My heart is swearing
My heart is squeezing pain
How stupid can i get..
That i actually expected such thing wouldnt have happen to me..
Indeed i'm wrong..
Super wrong..
That Son of the bitch person who stole my bag..
Seriously!
What's so good about my bag?
But yea thanks to YOU
I have to replace my SNB CERT/Staff Pass/Name Tag/Name Chop
There goes my new bought perfume!
There goes my Creative Zen MP4!
There goes my new bought diary with my dearest frens and sis Poloroid Pic!
And my new PENS!!
I'm vulgar and defensive when i am angry
This is me..
Inregardless of anyone..
Do not rub on my wound..
Do not and i really mean do not..
RUB ON MY WOUND!
You wouldnt want to see me snapping right at your face..
Dont go the tactic of
'How careless/ you shouldnt have left your bag there'
I KNOW!!
The last thing to hear is to REMIND ME OF THAT!
So yea unless you seriously know how i handle my feelings..
Please dont assume that i am alright..
I AM NOT!
And i aint making any noise about it..
I see no point..
So just leave me alone..
Leave me to my usual self..
Of
Shelling up...
I believe this feeling will die off soon..
Just a matter of when...
So if i really do snap at you..
I apologise..
I'm just in a lousy mood..
Perfectionist
♥ 2:03 PM
