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I HATE MYSELF NOW..
LIKE RIGHT NOW AT THIS MOMENT
Hate for what i'm feeling now..
Hate for what i'm thinking now..
Hate for what my actions is showing now..

♥ 10:44 PM

Morning went over laogong hse...
Accompained him for a hair cut..
OTW pass by his hse playground..
The place there is so recreational..
Not only have playground for kids..
But also some faciilities that allow older resident to...
Not play but mayb exercise...so they wont rot at home..
That;s wad laogong told me..lol..


Laogong tried on this still look structure like thing..
It turn out to be a similar to a swing...
WE both sat on it and swing for quite some time..LOL..

♥ 11:32 PM

Its been so long since i slept all the way till 10plus without any interuptions or noise..
Mm...actually there is...My MOM called at 1030...
Kinda disturbed my sleep...
Couldnt went back to sleep so i lie in bed all the way till 11am.
Today...
Had a very wonderful day with laogong..
Met laogong at 1pm at our usual place..
Went over to KBOX to sing our lungs out..
Actually is from 2pm to 7pm..
But we went in half hr eariler..
So we got the extra half hour...
Mmm...both of us sang our heart out..
Had snacks and drinks...
Refill the drinks for 3 times..
WEnt to toilet for 3 times...LOL..
First time singing duet songs with laogong..
The feeling is so sweet..=)
So the whole afternoon our time is spent inside the kbox room..


Snacks and drinks~

Laogong start the ball rolling by singing first~
I shy na..hehe~

First pic taken while laogong is singing~

♥ 10:02 PM

I've brought my Bluetooth Adapter...!!
That means i can transfer pictures and songs...
*twist*
Which means now i can upload pic which is supposed to due so long ago...
-_-

For Valentine..
Laogong and me couldnt spend it like any other couples..
Cos i was having stupid exams at the wrong time..
So in the end ended up having a small dinner tgth with laogong..
Very sweet one..As long as beside laogong..
Every moment is always sweet...
We exchange our gift for each other..
A very simple first vday for both of us..
But that doesnt matter really much..
As long as our heart is tgth...rite??


My gift for laogong..
A vday card with a CD with a powerpt slides inside made by me..

laogong gift for me.. a wallet..

♥ 11:58 PM

Exams is at last over!
I can have my break at last~!!
Well..i cant blog abt anything
My hp spoil in someway that my usb cable cant read from my phone..
no pics can be transfer over to my com~!
SAD...
Got to wait till i go get my bluetooth adapter for com..
To transfer stuff over..
Dun wanna send my phone for service again..
Cos that means everything will be gone from my phone again..
Till next entry when i have the pics in my com...~

♥ 10:21 PM

Was surprise u called last nite..
To wish me happy new year..hehe..
Was so happy..
Couldnt get to slp..
And i jus lay there for duno how long..
Mom and dad quarral today..
Like again..
Every year first day of CNY without failed..
Just couldnt get it clear why they did that for..
received ur call today..
Had a small chat..very happy..
But ruined by stupid last min visiting without telling me..
Couldnt chat longer..SAd..
mm...now waiting for your call..
Wonder will u still call back..
so much wanted to hear ur voice...=(

♥ 8:41 PM

Reach home at 3 plus..
Wanted so much to blog at that moment about my feelings and stuff..
But just couldnt bring myself to blog..
My hands is trembling..
No muscle control at all..
Trying to hide every trembling from my mom..
Did everything my mom ask me to..
And off to shower i went..
And i stayed inside for more than 20 mins..
Pass my normal shower time..
I wasnt playing with water..
I was simply stoning and crying..
Yes..crying..

Met up with Laogong on train and went to beach in the morning..
You ppl may think its abit crazy..
thinking what are we doing there early in the morning..
Well..jus chilling out and enjoying each other company..
The wind over there today was super windy..
And lying on his shoulder beside him jus make everything seems so perfect..
I keep praying time stop time stop..
N the time actually pass super slow..
which i am glad cos i have more time to spend with him..
But all in all..no matter what time will still reach..
Time will not stop for any particular reason..
Now i wish i have the special ability of stopping the time.. haiz..
Had lunch with laogong at white sands food court..
And sat the train back to kranji..
Where he have to meet his dad..
We board the train at ard 1..
Seeing the time and every stop passing by..
Nearer and nearer to the time we have to depart..
Nearer and nearer to the place where he have to leave..
My heart cant help but start to sink..
I know time left for me to see him..touch him..feel him..
is getting lesser..
and i have to wait for sun before i get to see him..
So much things wanted to tell him..
But all i can do is just hook onto his arm and rmbing the feeling..
Cos i defintely gonna miss that for the whole 3 days..
So much effort of me drowning back the tears..
And not cryin in front of him was wasted
When he said..
"Must take care of yourself when i'm not ard"
Boom..my tears drop..
Again...he place his hand and my hand tgth..
Asking me to lift off the fourth finger..
Which apparently cant be done..
He said..
"This represents that his heart will always be with me.."
And BOOM..Another round of tears..
reach Kranji..
Alight the Train..
Waiting for the train from the other side for me to go back home..
Was thinking there was enough time for me to have a last gd hug and kiss..
But no..
Train arrive in jus within 2 mins time..
I have to leave..
We jus hug so briefly and jus one last kiss..
My tears just drop like waterfall..
Tried to smile before he left..but i couldnt..

I cried on the train..
I feel so idoit..
I never ever cried on train before..
And this is the first time..
The train was empty though..
With four ppl sitting at each corner of the seats..
And onli me in the middle of nowhere..
Feel so helpless..
Every sms he send jus got the tears whelm up in my eyes..
And tick tock tick tock..
IT went dripping down..

Last Sms from u at 2.51pm..
Last call from u at 2.55pm..
Received ur call at 4.05pm..
know u have reach safetly..
Was relieved..But yet still very sad..
Was very emo throughout the day..
No mood to do anything..
But jus to watch drama series to numb abit of that emptiness..
Thanks yan for intro the drama..
It was really funny..

5 hrs and 45mins since u left..
*I want time to pass like shooting stars now*

♥ 8:22 PM

In 15 more hrs time..
Laogong will leave for malaysia..
Today went to Raffles place..
Sat by the river..
Under the moonlight..
Help to cut his nails..
And we chatted alot of stuff also..
Surprisingly there were FIREWORKS..!!
Its been a long time i seen fireworks in front of my eyes..LOL..
Seems like they are preparing for either CNY or there is some event going on there..
But what laogong and me do was jus sit there and enjoyed the view..
I was so high that i keep saying 'nice nice nice'
Didnt took pics..LOL..
Cos too engrossed in watching..
Didnt really hug and kiss laogong today..sad..=(
Tml morning until 2 plus..
i will spend and treasure the time with him..

*I want the time to stop now..
*So you wont have to leave
*Sure i be so lost without you beside..

♥ 11:02 PM

Hiyee..!!
I'm back with pics from last entry till today..=))
My usb port decided to work and transfer the pic over..
Not becos of me but becos of laogong helping to transfer..
Stupid com and usb port..
Anyway pics will be posted quite alot for this post..

Today went out with laogong..
Watch Rambo 4~~
A very violent movie..~~
Alot of blood splurting around..
Ppl being bomb in pieces..
I was again shivering cold inside the theater..
becos i didnt wore cardigan..
Laogong also didnt bring jacket..
My whole body yet again shiver like nobody business..~
Took quite a few pic of me and laogong~
Laogong always complain we didnt took much photo..
So now i will start taking more pics of us okie??~
My HP accessories is revived!
Brought Rip Curl lanyard..~~
Red colour..same as laogong..~~
Hee..So happy can..
When i walk out of the store..
laogong say i have this satisfaction look on my face..LOL..

Laogong came over for dinner..=))
Dad seems to be talking much more to laogong after each visit..
Hopefully everything will work out as i wanted..=))

4 more days to laogong leaving for malaysia..~~
Sad SAd..~~

Photoshoot day~


Laogong~


Taken from side view..
Got more shuai pics of laogong..
But those pics for me to see..BLEHX..


Amin...Laogong...Zee...Nick...

♥ 10:28 PM