AM I NOT WORTH WHILE AT ALL?
Should i say
Expected?
Let me think
YES..
OBVIOUSLY
EXPECTED
Why should i bother asking in the first place?
To even DREAM that YOU will come
To even THINK that YOU will make time out
To even TAKE your so call PROMISE SERIOUSLY initally
Does it make a diff?
To let you know EARILER or LATER?
EARILER was what you expected me to do
So you can plan..
But yea again..
IT NEVER DID SUCCEED
EXCUSES?
AVOIDANCE?
NO CHOICE?
Maybe you really do not have a choice regarding your shift
Mayb you are not given a choice to choose
But did you request in the first place?
Maybe you did but i dont feel it
Because you have just merely put it in a 'nice way' and tell me
'You know i would have fall asleep if you were to ask me watch you perform'
If it is so hard for you to sit still and watch your daughter perform so be it
If it is so hard for you to understand what your daughter is doing so be it
JUST TELL ME STRAIGHT!
DONT GIVE ME FALSE HOPE!
DONT EVEN COME AND TELL ME TO ASK YOUR FRENS TO REPLACE YOU!
TO YOU IS IT THE SAME?
DO I KNOW THEM WELL?
IS THERE A NEED FOR THEM TO COME?
WHEN I JUST WANT YOU TO WATCH AND NO ONE ELSE!
When will you FARKING understand!
People tell me..
'You perform so well,your parents should watch and be proud!'
YEAH..
Tell that to them!
Dont tell me!
Not like i didnt try before
Again and again
Repetitive
Sick of it
Tired of it
Given up hope on it
Last chance of me enjoying my presence on stage
Has been nicely crushed by you
You make me feel that i am not even worth your attention
You make me feel that all my efforts over the years just to perform for you to see
IS NOT EVEN WORTH TO BE SEEN
Then why do i bother?
Why do i make so much effort to work so hard just to shine on stage
I HATE TO THE CORE
HATE the feeling of knowing my frens all have their parents supporting
BUT NOT ME!
But well, i actually should have gotten use to this feeling long time ago
It makes me feels that i'm not even worth to even invite my frens to watch me perform
So what do i do with my tickets?
THROW IT?
GIVE AWAY?
WAIT ?
and just see who would want to watch me perform?
I dont even dare to ask anyone now..
call it fear of rejection
But i am just so sick of all this stuff..
I should have just given up
DANCING
long long time ago
P.S : No comments needed
Perfectionist
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