What is commitment?
After many setbacks...
Gradually i came to realise...
I'm never and will never be the commitment level high kind of person
Commitment scares me...
Not at the inital stage but gradually...
I know i kind of ruin some people life/perception about love..
I dont mean it..
I just got to know what i really want
And i couldnt continue to pretend that i dont care about it
And that i am able to commit to something which freaks me out
So i choose the easiest way out..
To end it...
Which is best for both parties..
I'm sorry i hurt u...
i'm sorry i didnt give any pre-warning
I'm sorry that i'm selfish..
But life is never fair isnt it?
I'm never the kind of gal that
I have a thought/feeling i go talking it out straight away
I keep it...
I think about it...
I decide upon myself...
And release it...
Selfish...
Yes i know...
Which i remembered someone kept telling me that..
Guess its just inborn in me..
I couldnt help it..
I'm brought up to protect myself...
Protect myself ended up hurting someone..
I sometimes do hate myself for being so me...
I know what i want and like now..
Doesnt mean that i have to act on it..
I love the way i am now..
Learnt that never to take things too fast..
That's when problems arise..
I'm taking everything slow..
So...
Sorry again...
Phoebe...
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